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jesus fucking christ why is my life so difficult

all i want to do is submit my applications and move on with my life. thats all I want to do.

why do i need teacher recommendations. i am a perfect student, ive led a perfect life, i have never done anything wrong, i dont see why they cant just read all my fucking essays and look at my fucking SAT scores and gpa, WHY DO I NEED TO FILL OUT ANOTHER THOUSAND FORMS THAT ARE POORLY LABELED AND IMPOSSIBLE TO FIND BY YOURSELF IN ORDER TO HAVE SOME FUCKER TELL THE COLLEGE WHAT I JUST WROTE A 6 BILLION PAGE ESSAY ON

jesus, i havent drawn anything worthwhile in ages. i cant even doodle anything good (except i've gotten pretty good at astro boys FACE) and i'm utterly inspirationless. my life feels so desolate.

and on top of that, i mistyped my social security number on half of my college apps, which as you know, cannot be changed once their are submitted. fuck. my. life.


and the cherry on top of the emo pie, every day i live is agony. i go to school every day wishing i could be anywhere else in the world. i am perpetually bored to the point where i truly feel like im in physical pain every morning.